I am, unquestionably, getting stronger.
So then why am I wondering if I could be pushing even harder?
The skiers came out on the lake this morning, so we altered our swim route to avoid them and added a few hundred incidentally. I was in a group of 3, but we were so spread out that it was difficult to tell who was near me. I paused several times to look behind me for another swimmer, and realized simultaneously that she had passed me and that I was feeling a little tired.
Or was I? Was I just taking it easy to take it easy?
|This is actually Lake Cane, |
where I used to swim
before I became part of my current
Or was it? Was I just being lazy?
HTFU . . . . or know your breaking point? Which one?
I looked at the pattern of my workouts over the last few weeks (BT.com lets you create all these great graphs from past workouts - the benefit of consistently logging), and I noticed that the weeks I don't feel good or my schedule gets crazy and I have to cut my workouts down, I am still jumping up towards the planned volume the following week. But then the weeks just after that, I am forced to rest more, ostensibly because the increase in volume is so sharp that it tires me. So I decided, with the last few weeks being easy, that I will not push too hard this week.
Let me tell you something. I don't know the difference between not pushing too hard and letting myself off the hook. There *is* a distinct difference. I have said a million times that, at one point during my surgery recovery, when I was hypothyroid, I said to myself I'm going to feel like crap anyway, so I may as well work out. So, since I have a different point of reference, and feeling bad is usually resolved by a workout, sometimes it's just hard for me to tell where the line is.
In the past 5 years, I have always erred on the side of caution, to the point of undertraining. We all know our bodies best, and I know mine requires far more rest than the average tri/athlete. But I can't help wondering sometimes - could I be pushing harder?