Are We There Yet??!!

Maybe that should be, can we celebrate yet? 

I've been talking a lot recently about all these major milestones in my life - racing PRs, trophies, GRE score improvements, moving out on my own, working on my esteem, developing a healthy relationship with social media, etc.  I have also talked extensively about becoming a process-oriented thinker vs. an outcome-oriented thinker.   

Even so, goals are an integral part of my life.   And two of the major milestones of my life are looming before me: getting into the PhD program and being cancer-free.

It always feels like it takes forever to get started until you're in the middle of it, when it all moves at warp speed.  Then, when you get close to the finish, time crawls again.  I am less than 5 days from seeing my scan results (I get the scan today), and it seems like it's going to take 5 years to hear the news.  (Of course, that probably is related to the fact that those bastards put me on a clear liquid fast for not 6, not 8, but 24 hours AND pumped me full of laxatives.  At least I'll be light when I weigh in this morning, right?)

What I do know is this: I haven't really done a good job of celebrating my accomplishments and milestones in the past.  When I find out that I'm finally in recovery (whenever that is, next Wednesday or next year - either way), when I find out that I am finally a PhD student - there are going to be two MASSIVE celebrations.  They're going to encompass all the victories, small and large, from the past few years.

In the meantime, I feel very positive about both.  I know that I will be ecstatic to hear "NED," and "You're getting a PhD," (EIEIEO) - but, if I don't, I already have my backup plan.  Being ready either way makes me feel more positive than just expecting the best alone.

1 tidbits of wizdom:

CautiouslyAudacious said...

I hope you get some good news!