Time for more updates, goal setting and miscellaneous bullshit.
This was a disappointing week in many ways and a great week in others. The dissapointments stem from a big mistake in my personal care. I had been maintaining a decent sleep balance, but this week was crazy at work and home. Instead of getting 9+ hours per night as I should, I got maybe 3-6 for more than 4 nights this week. On Friday night, I was tired but couldn't fall asleep. I sat and watched a movie and debated whether I should attempt the half. The race started before 6, I needed to be there by about 5, and I needed to leave no later than 4 since I live at least an hour from Disney. I set my alarms for 3:30am and went to sleep, determined to tough it out.
I set one wrong and slept through the other one, and missed the first race I've ever missed because of sleep. This found me curled in a ball at 4am crying my eyes out. I wonder edwhen my life would ever be more normal. I don't know anyone else who has to "stock up" on sleep for a week just to get up 3 or 4 hours early ONE DAY.
I didn't even want to go to the Tri Club meeting. I felt like a massive failure. But I made it, and grabbed onto some tiny little molecule of hope. I'm still doing my best to keep training, and I even renewed my Y membership so I can get back to swimming and group workout. I finally got a club shirt and hat, too.
In other news, I seem to have found a rather amazing guy. I have known him for a long time, and we've become pretty good friends. One day I realized he was interested in me, but I wasn't ready to act on it and wasn't sure I was interested back. I'm proceeding slowly and so is he, but I'm having a great time with him.
More later. I have new goals to add to my list.