I've emerged from hiding.
I'm in the process of reformatting my blog. I'm trying to figure out how to move some of it without completely re-creating it. I'm trying to decide how to maintain anonymity and stay in touch with e-friends and training pals. I don't want to be a different person, I just don't want to advertise so much outside of my training life. I've had a lot of time to think and there's a lot to share. There's also a lot I'd like to keep to myself.
You see, in the past year, I've accomplished a lot. Very little of that has to do with training, but training is what has, once again, caused me to return to blogging.
I realized, after returning to racing in August, that nothing makes me feel as accomplished and healthy as finishing a race. So now, 3 years later, I've decided that I can put all my gained knowledge and gadgets to work and really enjoy and excel at the sport . . . not compared to other age groupers, but compared to me.
I also realized something after I ran/walked a 3:28 half marathon this weekend while recovering from bronchitis: namely, that nothing is ever as bad/hard/slow/long/sad as you think it is. What I mean is this: I used to think I was so sooooo slow. I figured 2:45 for my first half was TERRIBLE. Now I see myself finish in 3:28 and I go . . .
DAMN! THAT'S slow. 2:45 WAS NOT BAD!
And when I did 2:45 . . . I didn't use Gu or any real "nutrition strategy." I just ran. After all, it was just a half marathon. It's only 13.1 miles. So I finally realized that 13.1 miles is
I think I got slower at races, and hurt myself, and got frustrated with my accomplishments, because I didn't respect the distance. You have to respect the distance.
Even at a 10k.
There are some races you really can just pull out of your ass. I'll give you 5ks . . .they're short and snappy. I'll give you sprint tri's . . . they're a sub-one-hour workout. But 10ks and Olympic tris, on up through marathons and Ironman races?
That's a long FUCKING DISTANCE.
Taking all this into account, I'm approaching my goals differently. I'm going to do another marathon or two, yes - maybe 1 each year - but I'm going to focus on half marathons through half Ironman races.
- I don't want to be a triathlon coach anymore. At least not at this point. I don't see myself doing it happily, knowing that no matter how hard I work, I won't be thin OR fast - and there are a LOT of coaches now, so financially it's also not a win. I just wanna have fun.
- I don't want to be an Iron-distance triathlete anymore. At least not at this point. Half Iron is good for me.
- I'll do some marathons, but now I think I'm going to focus on the half. It's a good training distance. It's respectably long. It still makes the average person go WOW YOU RAN THAT FAR? It still makes you feel like a certified badass.
- That being said, I'm re-arranging my goal and maybe I'll do a HALF marathon in every state before I die.
And that's all I got for now. Got a 5-miler, a little recovery run, and a 10-miler on the schedule this week. I'm wisely making it a stepback week since I race agin the week after.
The next week, OUC Half Marathon plus 2 miles is my long run (15). The following week, 17-19, then 18-20 long runs. After that, I step back to 12, 10, and then the marathon. If that goes well, I'm back for Florida Half Ironman in May.
If it doesn't, I just keep on training for other half-distance races.